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Wednesday, December 30, 2009

I don't wanna be alonee...

anyone wanna whisk me off for new year eve? i have absolutely nothing planned. mom has dinner, sis is in singapore with boyfriend, davina is spending it with her aunt's family, hannah's in US, eklektos doesn't seem to be planning any countdown..... =(

someone take me out!!!!!!!!!

or i'll just spend it alone at home with my dog..or with my 'ex', jeson..

so retarded, nothing to do on new year eve. first time oh.. like..so lonely....-.-

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

i've been sick since christmas day and it's 29th dec already. gahh.. three days. -.- been having unbearable stomach ache right up to the point of not being able to entertain guest in my house, having difficulty in sleeping due to pain and being woken up despite lack of rest due to pain.

symptoms:
stomach ache..
feeling hungry all the time
lost of appetite in food even when starving
feel like vomitting when i partake food
diarrhoea

doctor said it was food poisoning (plus gastric?).

doctor me

food poisoning for three days??!!
it happens..
you need a jab..
what??! why..... =(
haha *gets needle ready*
is it gonna hurt? =(
no..
are you really really sure?
yes.. *ketawa*
*after jab*
so was it painful?
yes... -.-

so, few days left then back to school. =)
i..finished..spm... heheheheheheh XD
O.o you did? you look like form 2...
yes! thank you. XD

very friendly doctor. the fee was unreasonably high though. rm100. -.-

at least i got sick during christmas which is right after dance prax. it would be horrible if i was sick when dance prax. praise God!

Monday, December 28, 2009

Santa Claus

alright so i've been wanting to do research about santa claus (also known as sinterklaaus) since last year christmas, and my efforts were only till halfway. so i made myself promise myself to do research about the guy again.

this is what i got..

the modern figure of santa claus is inspired primarily by saint nicholas. the name 'santa claus' or 'sinterklaaus' came from saint nicholas, which over the centuries, had evolved to santa claus or sinterklaaus or father christmas and many other names.

saint nicholas (4th century greek christian bishop) was famous for giving gifts and helping the needy. some believed that the existence of santa claus was so that children would remember saint nicholas.

after that, the image of santa claus was edited and modified over and over again to suit society.

'santa claus' was later in shown in parallel lines with odin (a god of north germany). both had beards, had some eight-legged-horned animal that flies (also known as reindeer for santa, sleipnir for odin) and had a cloth bag carried by their servants to capture naughty children.

according to odin tales, children would leave carrots, straw or sugar by their chimney for sleipnir the flying horse to eat and odin would reward their kindness by replacing the food they left for gifts and candy.

that contributed to the 'leave your stockings by the chimney!!' also, it was said that saint nicholas use to toss coins into windows and when windows were found shut, he would toss them down the chimney.

and so every christmas, many people look forward to receiving presents and gifts. either from 'santa' or 'odin' depending on what they believe in.

the meaning of christmas is hardly felt by the people around us. instead of focusing on the most precious gift (Jesus), alot focus on earthly gifts. =(

Sunday, December 27, 2009

I'm angry at you.

GROW UP LA PLEASE!!!!!!!!

the world doesn't revolve around you. stop terrifying us with your tantrumps when you can't get what you want. i don't even know what you want.

you want me to treat you like a baby is it?

cz i just might..

oh gugu gaga..

you don't even know sufficient words to scold me and had to resort to the plain 'bla bla bla' line.

-.-

Monday, December 21, 2009

Straw skirt

attended a hawaiian themed party just now. O.o it was the usual anual year-end-party at datuk paul's house. the only thing different was the theme. every year it had been formal, this year it's hawaii.. -.-

i was kinda left with no choice (along with my sis and cousin, mel) and had to wear a straw skirt to the party. they got 20 straw skirts for the staff to wear. although i'm not a staff but my mom is. so, show face la, kena paksa also.. -.-

the straw skirt was so itchy.. -.-

the garland was so itchy.. -.-

don't like dailies contact lenses. makes vision blurry and my eyes tired.

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i don't know what it was that happened during the party (actually, before the party) but, just a thought.

alot of girls out there dresses in super short shorts and super short skirts with shirts that are semi-transparent and have their hair up in the currently-in-fashion bun and gladiator 4-inch heels every single day. maybe it's cz they wanna keep up with fashion. maybe it's because they wanna look good. or it could be maybe because they feel so insecure and they wanna fit in and they are afraid that if they don't show their legs off enough or if their hair is not right, they'll not fit in. maybe they's afraid of being left behind when instead they want people to notice them and think ''hey isn't she hot..'' or something.

girls like that will always be insecure, they'll always strive to be the best in everything, especially in fashion and in whatever the world is in. because they care too much until it creates fear in them, on what others will think about them.

they'll always be like that unless the way they think are turned 180'.



alright fine. which girl doesn't care about fashion, which girl doesn't want to be noticed. practically every girl does. but some girls just go overboard with things.

like a below 15 year old girl wearing a tube? (not pin-pointing but giving example..)

i'm just saying, don't go overboard with the outfit and stuff and sell yourself cheap with high mantainence or something. they're only materials on earth. you can't bring them to heaven with you. =)
how much disturbance is the human brain designed to deal with? how much pressure is the human brain capable of experiencing? there is a certain limit, where when too much hits on the brain, a section of the brain will be affected.

i think i'm nearing that limit.

i need to learn more...

oh..btw jeson broke up with me just now. yes, i know, isn't it sad.. he said he loves carmen more than he loves me..

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the relationship was pretend, don't worry..

but now that means i can't hold his hand anymore......

this so cheered me up..

Friday, December 18, 2009

Chicken

do you know how a chicken walks?

its head goes forwards and backwards repeatedly, like the head is leading the entire body to move forward or elsewhere.

and it's leg jerks up and down unnaturally, as if it's a very forceful act to walk.

and it's shows off it's butt involuntarily because of it's jerking legs.

don't laugh.

i walk like the chicken now. cz..leg pain..

don't laugh.

*angry face*

Christmas Rehearsal 2009

i've been having body aches all over ( leg, hip, arm) for the past few days and it's so bad i can't go up and down the stairs without flinching or yelping in pain. i can hardly bend down to pick up a pencil from the floor.

and it's because i practiced dancing too much without warming up (learnt my lesson).

today we had rehearsal. the dance didn't have an easy choreography and in certain parts of the song we had to bend down or jump down or get on the floor in a super fast beat and get back on our feet the next count..

for the past 2 days during practice i haven't been doing those moves to the full and didn't bend down or jump up or get on the floor like i was suppose to cz it hurts like crazy.

so i was wondering how was i suppose to do all those hard and painful stunts when i can't bend down properly.

surprisingly during the dance, i was able to bend my knees all the way down and back up again immediately without feeling any pain. i was able to get on the floor and come back up in the correct amount of time without shrieking..

it was so...wow..

and right after the dance we had to walk down the stage, which had 2 steps of stairs, and i had a hard time trying to come down. now, my body still aches.

O.o

it was precisely only during the dance that God took all the pain from my legs away so i could dance properly. wow.. i thank Him so much. =D

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

WMP

i must be smarter than you are. it only took me common sense and people watching. =D -.-

screw wmp. playing the awesomely emo and precise song.

next song please...

next song again please..

next song again please..

next song again please..

Singapore couldn't have made me sick.. could it?

diarrhoea!!!!!!!!!!

sorethroat!!!!!!!!!

mummy my tummy hurts.. =( owwwwuch....

*to the bog*

oh btw i went to singapore... and i'm back!!!! i miss my own bathroom. XD XD

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Pray for broken hearts.

*reads friend's blog post : i hope they don't fight again*

they fought? oh yes i pray that they'll fight more and they break up.. the sooner the better. the worse the break up the better.

quote by teacher kenneth: sometimes you have to pray for the destruction of others. sometimes you pray that God breaks their heart. because people run back to God with broken hearts. no broken heart, no running to God from the backslided.

it's true. if people are in their own cozy world, they won't feel as if they need God. cz everything would be going their way and life would be perfect. but if they are out of their comfort zones, if they are suffering, if their heart hurts, they would turn to God as their last resort.

[isn't it sad the way most christians only turn to God when they need Him.. it's like..being the boss of God instead of the other way round. cz God should be our boss, not us be His boss..]

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

all throughout spm season i was wondering how come i was feeling so stress-free and light-headed. i even prayed about it. it was out of the ordinary not to have something plucking the stress out of my brain.

and..right after spm, i suddenly felt like..this blow of problems and everything else hits me once again. it was like, during spm season i was sheltered from any distractions, like God had His hand over me. and once spm is done, it's like.. i can feel the heat of things all over again.

thousands of things are swirling through my mind now i don't even know why am i so stressed.. =( i think i needa talk to Gem...

Hi Gem..

SPM day 8 [last day]

[chemistry]

gahhh.. so freaking hard... -.- and dennis told me chem would be easy this year.. -.-

my mind's all in a mess now..

reality hasn't hit yet. it feels like i've not even sat for SPM yet. and.. it's..the end of high school....

i feel sad..yet excited..yet scared.. next year i'll be off to aus. just that statement gives such a big impact. i realised that this will most probably be the last time i can feel so at home and friendly and non-outsider with my friends here. this will most probably be the last time i can contribute to eklektos...and praise kids..

wow.. i'll be off to aus next year. the thought disheartens me. i'm gonna miss my mom so much. and my friends too... =(

Monday, December 7, 2009

Cats meeting



what were the cats doing on the proton car... o.o -.-

chem!! last subject!!! >.< =D

Thursday, December 3, 2009

SPM day 7

[physics]

didn't know what to study for paper3 today.. so i just picked one experiment [out the zillions in the ref book] and decided to study that. and prayed..

and when the paper reached my hands just now, i found out that the experiment that i randomly picked to study came out! i was in awe.. like..like..wow......the only experiment that i studied came out. it was almost like a leaked..except i didn't even know that would come out. O.O so grateful to God. =D =D =D

overall physics was kinda easy. =P tricky a lil but easy. paper1 and paper3 is the first 2 papers in the whole spm exam where i had enough time to complete everyhing and recheck.. XD every other paper, basically not enough time. heh. >.<

i know this is a lil late..but..
quote chok quoting teacher dorothy: don't predict, prepare.

ahhh freedom.. you're so close by i can smell your sweet aroma. another few days and i'll be leaping with joy like a lunatic. well, it's okay to be a lunatic. it's after spm anyway. XD

i've a feeling that everyone will be crying during the last paper of chem next week. last paper for spm. last day we'll all be together, officially..

they started crying during class party already.. O.o

by the way,

happy birthday dude! i bet we gave you the best present ever. XD malaysia's ministry of education gave you a pretty good present too. physics paper-easy peasy lemon squeesy. nyehehehe..