you guys know how it feels like when you just went to some youth camp and get all fired up for God there, but then like 1 month later the passion disappears?
and how some people blame it on God, oh God didn't make enough miracles for the fire to continue burning.
or how some people blame it on their life. when my life is great and all is going well, i praise God. when my life is down to the pits and nothing is going my way, i don't acknowlegde my 'relationship' with God. my 'relationship' with God floats along with my life.
or how some people blame it on the church. oh worship team isn't doing a good enough job, therefore cannot worship with whole heart, therefore fire die lo..
or how some people blame it on other people, other people not being so excited for God, meh i also same lo..
if christians use those excuse for our fire to die down, then are we really worshippers of Christ? or are we only worshippers every few times per year when got planetshakers conference or only when got youth camp?
i'm not saying it's wrong that we get all excited for God during big youth events. i'm saying that after all those events, it is up to us to fan the flame. God is always speaking to us, but how come only during big youth events can we hear Him?
God is not to be blamed, nor the church, nor other people. if we are really christians, then it would be a relationship with Christ only, that doesn't include how awesome the worship team is, how awesome the speaker is, how fired up or friends are. if we are really christians, we would stand for Christ, passion burning for Him, throughout our lives. not during big youth events.
come brothers and sisters. i don't think God deserve to be mistreated this way. be real in your relationship with God.
quote rachel soh : 'was what you said on the altar real? or was it just an outburst of emotions?'
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Friday, January 1, 2010
2010
2009. what about 2009? i don't know.. if i had a choice of editing my year, i probably won't edit alot. i thought that this year was pretty cool. ups and downs were there, but there is a lesson behind everything practically everytime.
like dropping class to a class of 'pilaks'. some may not agree with me but i actually love my class. being surrounded by 'low-class' malay-oriented people, i learnt their values and their ways. saw the difference between the chinese and the malays, why they contradict each other so much.
i love my class. they're not so lovable sometimes but they're family, we're family. one thing i love so much about them is the spirit of friendship. when one is in need, practically everyone lends a helping hand. when one is betrayed, the whole group of friends feels betrayed. when one cries, all cries. when one laughs, all laughs. when one fight, all fight. (okay maybe this isn't so nice, but still. they're willing to sacrifice getting suspended to protect their friends?)
you will never see such friendship in a s1-chinese infested class.
another would be jons being president and me being vice for seekers. although everyone have seen the way jons behaved all through the year and how he threw his responsibilities away and backslid alot, i'm thankful that he was president instead of me. at one point, i admit i really wanted to be 'president' (because of the kokum marks factor..) and i knew i deserved it, but calvin's words kept echoing in my brain. (freaky..) 'he is still your leader, don't let others belittle him. God choosed him.'
i guess that contributed to me defending jons alot when others mocked him.. =( anyway, i'm thankful he's president. because. if i was made president and him as my vice (there were only 2 candidates) he probably would have still backslided. and i probably wouldn't care so much. but because he is my leader, thats why i cared. =)
i still have alot to say but i'll confuse and bore all my readers to sleep. so i won't do that. XD
there are issues whereby i wished i could changed it but i won't let it out here. all also issue sensitive. later people come up to me and punch me in the face or something. XD -.-
okay.. 2009 resolutions!
[/ judging by my forecast. XD] 4As in SPM, no D
[/] sleep earlier
[] learn cooking?
[/] friendlier to newbies in eklektos
[/ right up till like the last few months of 2009. =(] be more optimistic
oppsies i failed to fulfill my third resolution. =(
2010 resolutions!! [haven't really thought about it.. ]
[] learn cooking?
[] somebody teach me guitar!! please!!
[] learn howda make my fingers 'flow' on the piano.
[] sleep early wake up early.
[] don't let people get to me so easily.
[] be more optimistic.
[] never get my priorities wrong. God first, mom second.
[] find out my identity. find out who i am and what i believe in.
[] leave my past behind.
[] not to be influenced by society that simply.
[] devotion. twice, every single day.
[] not to rush through my devotion.
[] find that inner peace and joy from God.
[] never let that inner peace and joy from God to go away.
[] stop living for myself, instead live everyday for God.
[] stop uplifting self.
[] jangan terburu-buru when making a decision. refer to God.
[] being more sensitive to God.
[] being even more compassionate and forgiving but not naive (if that's possible..)
wow looks like a really long list. >.< it's not gonna be easy keeping this..
but with God i can. =D
philippians 3:13-14 = 13 No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not acheived it, but I focus on this one thing. Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.
like dropping class to a class of 'pilaks'. some may not agree with me but i actually love my class. being surrounded by 'low-class' malay-oriented people, i learnt their values and their ways. saw the difference between the chinese and the malays, why they contradict each other so much.
i love my class. they're not so lovable sometimes but they're family, we're family. one thing i love so much about them is the spirit of friendship. when one is in need, practically everyone lends a helping hand. when one is betrayed, the whole group of friends feels betrayed. when one cries, all cries. when one laughs, all laughs. when one fight, all fight. (okay maybe this isn't so nice, but still. they're willing to sacrifice getting suspended to protect their friends?)
you will never see such friendship in a s1-chinese infested class.
another would be jons being president and me being vice for seekers. although everyone have seen the way jons behaved all through the year and how he threw his responsibilities away and backslid alot, i'm thankful that he was president instead of me. at one point, i admit i really wanted to be 'president' (because of the kokum marks factor..) and i knew i deserved it, but calvin's words kept echoing in my brain. (freaky..) 'he is still your leader, don't let others belittle him. God choosed him.'
i guess that contributed to me defending jons alot when others mocked him.. =( anyway, i'm thankful he's president. because. if i was made president and him as my vice (there were only 2 candidates) he probably would have still backslided. and i probably wouldn't care so much. but because he is my leader, thats why i cared. =)
i still have alot to say but i'll confuse and bore all my readers to sleep. so i won't do that. XD
there are issues whereby i wished i could changed it but i won't let it out here. all also issue sensitive. later people come up to me and punch me in the face or something. XD -.-
okay.. 2009 resolutions!
[/ judging by my forecast. XD] 4As in SPM, no D
[/] sleep earlier
[] learn cooking?
[/] friendlier to newbies in eklektos
[/ right up till like the last few months of 2009. =(] be more optimistic
oppsies i failed to fulfill my third resolution. =(
2010 resolutions!! [haven't really thought about it.. ]
[] learn cooking?
[] somebody teach me guitar!! please!!
[] learn howda make my fingers 'flow' on the piano.
[] sleep early wake up early.
[] don't let people get to me so easily.
[] be more optimistic.
[] never get my priorities wrong. God first, mom second.
[] find out my identity. find out who i am and what i believe in.
[] leave my past behind.
[] not to be influenced by society that simply.
[] devotion. twice, every single day.
[] not to rush through my devotion.
[] find that inner peace and joy from God.
[] never let that inner peace and joy from God to go away.
[] stop living for myself, instead live everyday for God.
[] stop uplifting self.
[] jangan terburu-buru when making a decision. refer to God.
[] being more sensitive to God.
[] being even more compassionate and forgiving but not naive (if that's possible..)
wow looks like a really long list. >.< it's not gonna be easy keeping this..
but with God i can. =D
philippians 3:13-14 = 13 No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not acheived it, but I focus on this one thing. Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.
The failed stalk...
jeson me alex janzen
*enters into restaurant with alex and janzen*
hey isn't that apple's brother? jeson ah?
O.o
O.o
*sits in a corner jeson can't see us*
[msging]
hello ex! family gathering?
no, eating with aunt and cousin and grandma and sis and bro. big sis, mom and daddy not here.. and how you know?
why isn't apple in the family gathering.. =(
not really family gathering. mummy and daddy not here. and how you know?
careful not to let your food get on your light blue shirt..
how the.. where are you?! lols!
can you teleport your float to my place? (he was drinking float..)
sure if i know where you are
*sees 2 kids from jeson's table go toilet*
why did you allow those 2 little kids to go toilet by themselves unattended?!
that's my bro and cousin. lols. i didn't even know they went. you can help me watch over ma.. seriously.. where are you?!
as a responsible older brother, you should take care of your younger siblings and not leave them unattended. my spirit is with you, ex. =)
yeah right.. i see you! haha! what did that avatar said? something like i see you right? haha..
*moments later*
*appears at the window next to jeson*
*enters into restaurant with alex and janzen*
hey isn't that apple's brother? jeson ah?
O.o
O.o
*sits in a corner jeson can't see us*
[msging]
hello ex! family gathering?
no, eating with aunt and cousin and grandma and sis and bro. big sis, mom and daddy not here.. and how you know?
why isn't apple in the family gathering.. =(
not really family gathering. mummy and daddy not here. and how you know?
careful not to let your food get on your light blue shirt..
how the.. where are you?! lols!
can you teleport your float to my place? (he was drinking float..)
sure if i know where you are
*sees 2 kids from jeson's table go toilet*
why did you allow those 2 little kids to go toilet by themselves unattended?!
that's my bro and cousin. lols. i didn't even know they went. you can help me watch over ma.. seriously.. where are you?!
as a responsible older brother, you should take care of your younger siblings and not leave them unattended. my spirit is with you, ex. =)
yeah right.. i see you! haha! what did that avatar said? something like i see you right? haha..
*moments later*
*appears at the window next to jeson*
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