Fingers licking numb.. ha?

my fingers have been numb for 4 days now. doctor said i exerted way more pressure than the amount that my fingers could handle. he said my nerves are in a state of shock..

takkan nerves shock for so long.. O.o -.-

and so i've been scalding my fingers with hot water thinking it would help courtesy of teacher Dennis when hot water won't do anything. thanks teacher i greatly appreciate your assumption of treatment.. -.-

the doctor said my fingers are tiny..

well of course la compared to his. he's a guy what..

fingers getting a little bit better though. =D i think..

Graphic Health Warnings (GHW)

i think it's a splendid idea to put GHW on cigarette packs. considering anti campaigns for smokers has only decreased 2% of the nation's smokers since 11 years ago.. >.<

apparantly malaysia has the highest percentage of teenage smokers in asean countries. guys of 40% and girls of at least 11% O.o

heaven? (edited)

some people believe that as long as you confess with your mouth that Jesus is the Son of God and He is the Way, you'll go to heaven, you don't need to live a 'holy' life. others believe that just by claiming through your mouth isn't good enough, you gotta live your faith. church always teach us that as long as we believe we'll go to heaven.

john 3:16 = For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

ephesians 2:8-9 = For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—not by works, so that no one can boast.

however,

james 2:14 = What good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save him?

james 2:18-20 = But someone will say, "You have faith; I have deeds." Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do. You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder. You foolish man, do you want evidence that faith without deeds is useless?

james 2 :26 = As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead.


contradicting eh..

le ping said (not in exact words): as long as you have a personal relationship with God you'll be saved and you'll enter heaven. faith means having a personal relationship with God ma..

well you believe what you choose to believe. =)

immunity..

*types with 8 fingers* my 2 fingers are numb.. from blanko-ing vertically set up sugar paper.. it's been numb for 7 hours now.. O.o i wonder if apple has numb fingers too..



i think..for all the hurts, i think God is trying to make me get immune to them. yes i'm weird. just got me thinking ya know.. why does God allow me to get hurt so often? instead of getting immune to the hurts i got immune to the people that hurt me and i now don't take them seriously for whatever they say.. bad huh.. i'm suppose to be immune to the hurt and still love the people, not get immune to the people and not love them enough..

don't matter if you don't understand..

teacher kenneth told me once about pottering.. potters keep in view (kiv) their clays and place them on a shelf to be left alone when their clays don't wanna be shaped properly. that's what GOD does. when people still don't listen/accept Him, kiv..

i'm gonna kiv. and expect for the worst but accept anything (gua) cz clearly not kiv-ing gives me more hurt and hoping for anything but the worst wounds me. i don't wanna be hurt again..

oh who am i kidding.. i always expect for the worst and then even worse unimaginable issues come up. and then i tell myself that i shouldn't care and that nothing will make me cry.. but in the end i still cry..

i'm sucha cry baby. big girls don't cry? then i must be a little girl then..

i shouldn't be feeling this way. but i can't help it. quote hannah : there's history.

God make me immune.. >.<

this is freaking awesome..

Flyleaf - Breathe Today

You try your hardest to perfect your explanations...
You lie until they've run out of questions

You can only move as fast as,
Who's in front of you,
And if you assume,
Just like them,
What good will it do,
So find out for yourself
So your ignorance,
Will stop bleeding through.

You can breathe today

So many lies swirling,
All around you,
You're suffocating,
The empty shape in you,
Steals your breath,
You're suffocating.

Logic forces me to believe in this,
And I have learned to see,
And I can only say what I've seen and heard,
And only you can choose,
And every choice you make will effect you,
Suit your own self.

You can breathe today

So many lies swirling,
All around you,
You're suffocating,
The empty shape in you,
Steals your breath,
You're suffocating.

Breathe!!!

Big enough to fill the void that's inside of you,
It's just a breath away.

So many lies swirling,
All around you,
You're suffocating,
The empty shape in you,

Breathe today.

so many 'false prophets', so many self-seeking/self-praising christians. and when they start talking, who would you believe? following them blindly and hanging on to every word of theirs is like having faith in them, not faith in God. ever noticed at the beginning/ending of a bible chapter, they sometimes put 'and a who has the faith of b who had the faith of c who has the faith of d' and so on? that's what it means. faith being passed down to others. faith being passed down is actually like..no faith at all. you believe because someone else believe. faith should come from ourselves from God. not someone we depend on to feed us the bible. if that someone whom we depend on falls, we fall too. because our base is based on them and our base is not strong.

guess what i'm trying to say is, have your own faith. don't blindly follow everything other christians say.

this has been on my mind for a while now. just thought i'll like to share it out. i don't know if i managed to present my point strongly though..



i am in love with flyleaf..

it's merdeka week!

happy independence day!! (sorry i'm late) [insert exam excuse here]