i don't know what to do anymore. feel like giving up. been trying all these months and he kept lying to himself and me. ''i want to change'' he says. but he's still the same. sometimes i wonder if he says that only to keep me silent and to make me happy. i know i'm not suppose to judge but he's my friend and i care for him. i don't want to regret this when i grow up.

can't you see you're blinded ka? you know you're wrong. you say you want to change. but it doesn't mean anything if you're just saying it. act it out. prove to me and all of us and most importantly, God, the person you really are. don't just be some weak guy that is all talk and no action.

the most pathetic thing is that you know about all the christian stuff that i can tell you about already. but you're so caught up in your own world. you know God wants to rescue you from the pit hole in your life. but you don't wanna get out. how then can God take you out if you're unwilling?

i don't know what you find in the ways of the world, seriously. temporary happiness? and hurt and violence and guilt and sorrow and addictions. what use is there? what's the point of following the ways of the world when it gives you broken hearts after broken hearts? you only have one heart. and it's very well obvious it's torn and ripped apart. so how? seek 'medication' from the world? the world doesn't heals. it gives you painkillers that have side effects and eventually wears off. like aspirin. God heals. His doesn't have and side effects. it doesn't wears off.

please. for the sake of yourself, don't give up. don't say ''i don't trust God''. this is all just a test. life on earth is short. don't waste it on aspirins.



i bet you dislike me.

i bet your 'love' don't like me too. she would probably use the word 'hate' on me.

know what.. i really kasian her. you're stabbing her heart and she lets you do so willingly.. =(

wake up call people!! stop living in dota land where it's good if you tear a soul. -.-