why do you serve God?

sometimes i wonder of the purpose you serve. maybe you're not at the age to understand yet. or maybe i'm degrading you or judging you.

still remember the words of datuk paul: 'people serve in church not for God but for themselves. you serve in the ministry where you enjoy yourself and laugh all the time. but in a ministry where you get taken from your comfort zone or from your satisfaction or from your joy, you refuse to participate. you say that God doesn't want you serving there, it's not your call, not your talent etc because mainly, you don't find joy in serving. how do you know, really, if God doesn't want you to serve in that ministry? by your feelings and emotions?'

gahh.. now i see what he said is true...

i really don't know the real reason of you serving. we are all very well trained to say 'i serve for God. i'm on worship team for God. i'm on dance team for God. i'm in usher for God. i'm in media for God etc.' so asking you why you serve would be pointless.

i really have this gut feeling in my heart that you serve for the face. i can see so obviously. you boast to others about your participation in everything. you tell of how you did this or did that. there's hardly a week in church where you're free and not serving that specific day. and you're proud of it. you're proud to tell everyone that 'you're doing this all for Him.'

is my point clear? when we serve (notice the 'we') pride comes in. pride is the stepping stone to the downfall of leaders. pride is invisible and well hidden. pride can go unnoticed for a very long time (like like cancer) and when it had been left alone for too long, it eats you up. and i admit it. i had to battle pride while i was in ministry. therefore i don't blame you for having pride.




i thought all that i have heard, all the gossip, overprotectiveness, misunderstanding, lack of trust, division, i thought all have faded after a year. i thought the inside and the outside of the church was one and united. and recent issues have proven me wrong again. i hear tales of misunderstandings andoverprotectiveness again. i see the lack of trust and the judgemental looks everyone has. i see pride.

let not the work of the devil divide us.

come on church! i know i'm not an official leader anymore. but if this goes on we will be the same as how we were last year. everyone would end up hurt. i really don't want this to happen again. i know no church is perfect. but all i'm asking is to stop pointing the fingers and strive of the disapperance of pride. if you think she's so bad, let God judge her. let God take control. you have no right to say that about her just as i have no right to degrade you.

i know her heart is pure. but is yours? don't tell me you doubt her. tell God with a pure heart that you serve for Him.

did you know? sib likas malay congregation, they take their ministry really seriously. they cry when they serve because they serve totally for God. their heart is 100% for God. that is how humble they are. in my 5 years, i haven't seen that happen in eklektos. and how i wish we would all have that kind of heart to serve.

this is not the time to allow pride to enter. bible said (don't know where but something like) if your right arm causes you to sin, cut it off! it is better for you to lose your arm than to spend eternity in hell.

God unite us.

how are You going to unite us?

through people like me that think too much la..-.-

*sigh* i don't know what to do with people that aren't in the same lane of thinking.. comments?