2010

2009. what about 2009? i don't know.. if i had a choice of editing my year, i probably won't edit alot. i thought that this year was pretty cool. ups and downs were there, but there is a lesson behind everything practically everytime.

like dropping class to a class of 'pilaks'. some may not agree with me but i actually love my class. being surrounded by 'low-class' malay-oriented people, i learnt their values and their ways. saw the difference between the chinese and the malays, why they contradict each other so much.

i love my class. they're not so lovable sometimes but they're family, we're family. one thing i love so much about them is the spirit of friendship. when one is in need, practically everyone lends a helping hand. when one is betrayed, the whole group of friends feels betrayed. when one cries, all cries. when one laughs, all laughs. when one fight, all fight. (okay maybe this isn't so nice, but still. they're willing to sacrifice getting suspended to protect their friends?)

you will never see such friendship in a s1-chinese infested class.

another would be jons being president and me being vice for seekers. although everyone have seen the way jons behaved all through the year and how he threw his responsibilities away and backslid alot, i'm thankful that he was president instead of me. at one point, i admit i really wanted to be 'president' (because of the kokum marks factor..) and i knew i deserved it, but calvin's words kept echoing in my brain. (freaky..) 'he is still your leader, don't let others belittle him. God choosed him.'

i guess that contributed to me defending jons alot when others mocked him.. =( anyway, i'm thankful he's president. because. if i was made president and him as my vice (there were only 2 candidates) he probably would have still backslided. and i probably wouldn't care so much. but because he is my leader, thats why i cared. =)

i still have alot to say but i'll confuse and bore all my readers to sleep. so i won't do that. XD

there are issues whereby i wished i could changed it but i won't let it out here. all also issue sensitive. later people come up to me and punch me in the face or something. XD -.-

okay.. 2009 resolutions!
[/ judging by my forecast. XD] 4As in SPM, no D
[/] sleep earlier
[] learn cooking?
[/] friendlier to newbies in eklektos
[/ right up till like the last few months of 2009. =(] be more optimistic

oppsies i failed to fulfill my third resolution. =(

2010 resolutions!! [haven't really thought about it.. ]
[] learn cooking?
[] somebody teach me guitar!! please!!
[] learn howda make my fingers 'flow' on the piano.
[] sleep early wake up early.
[] don't let people get to me so easily.
[] be more optimistic.
[] never get my priorities wrong. God first, mom second.
[] find out my identity. find out who i am and what i believe in.
[] leave my past behind.
[] not to be influenced by society that simply.
[] devotion. twice, every single day.
[] not to rush through my devotion.
[] find that inner peace and joy from God.
[] never let that inner peace and joy from God to go away.
[] stop living for myself, instead live everyday for God.
[] stop uplifting self.
[] jangan terburu-buru when making a decision. refer to God.
[] being more sensitive to God.
[] being even more compassionate and forgiving but not naive (if that's possible..)

wow looks like a really long list. >.< it's not gonna be easy keeping this..

but with God i can. =D

philippians 3:13-14 = 13 No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not acheived it, but I focus on this one thing. Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.