my classmate converted to a muslim.. he was a buddist before..

i feel like a lousy christian. there are so many unsaved friends of mine, and yet i do nothing about it. because i get so caught up with my life. because i'm so overcomed with the fear and embarass-ment of sharing the gospel to my friends. because i'm afraid of the rejection and awkwardness that might come..

i know i'm in this school for a reason. but i'm not 'carrying out my purpose' as well as i should.



there's always talks about sharing the gospel, about stepping out in faith, about the end time and the other usual-famous-topics in relation. and it has always been in practically everyone's spirit, the experience of telling God that we'll step out in faith, we'll preach to our family/friends, we'll be on our best behaviours as so to be an example, and then after a few days the fire just burns out and then we'll not really carry out our promises to God.



imagine God's breaking heart everytime we promise that we'll 'go to the ends of the earth for You' and the next day act as if we don't know Christ.



i asked my friend what made him wanna convert. he said that he experienced dreams about muslim-ity a few times and he believes that it was God or something like that..



and i wanted to challenge him as to saying that the devil gives us dreams too, not only God.



but i didn't..



and after that i went to the library and sat there for a while thinking about this whole issue..



why didn't God give my friend dreams about christian stuff..



why didn't God give every single unbeliever dreams that He is Lord of all..



they probably would have repented of their unbelief and turn to Him.



and i got the answer.



God is the most powerful in this entire universe. He can do everything we weak humans can't do. He can send the whole wide world the exact same dream of everyone bowing to Him and proclaiming He is Lord. but He choosed not to.



there's a reason for us to be alive other than just to believe. otherwise we christians would be taken up to heaven the moment we believe in Him.



God can make the whole world believe in Him by force. but, He wanted us christians to share the gospel. that's why we're alive.



God wants us to share the gospel even though He Himself is mighty and can instantly make everyone believe. but sharing the gospel takes courage and faith. and we mature more spiritually when we share. i don't know about you, but between baby christian and matured christian, even though both are saved, matured christians are way better. for obvious reasons.



and the sad thing is we're all wasting our life away not willing to go up to a friend and talk about Salvation. and we're disappointing God and letting Him down. and the selfish thought of fear of being laughed at and doubt of the responds always tugs at us when we wanna share. but in this whole life, what really matters.. what others think of us or what God thinks of us..