God gave us time. So?

calvin quoted from someone:

'if you can remember a time in your life whereby your spiritual life is better than in your current state, you're backsliding.'




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there's so many things swirling through my mind right now. what to do how to do when to do what? exam's over (finallyyyy) but i still find myself overwhelmed with the chaotic schedule and additional things to do.. like.. 3 notice boards.. prayer meetings.. rr.. seekers.. seekers additional activities? doulus.. discipleship.. complete phy and chem notes..

i wish i haven't so many things to do and be stressed out on. i wanna focus on my studies.. (duh..)

and the most hateful thing about having everything going on is that i tend to lose the peace i seek and long from God. (ah yes, the devil's way of seperating mankind from God is through busy-ness) have any of you felt that way? i feel unexplanably different when i'm busy doing this or that, even though if it's something for the Lord, like..rr..seekers.. i feel chaotic sometimes.. and like.. i don't feel...peaceful.. like like..something left.. peace left? i don't know howda say.. >.< heh..

and i feel that same way everytime i don't make use of my time to glorify God. and i feel guilty. like.. i just wasted the time God gave to me.. example would be..talking in class when no teacher? being on the computer for no beneficial reason? watching tv.....etc..

maybe i just think too much.. or maybe i'm too much of an introvert that i don't like talking to people or handling crowds.. or maybe i'm too selfish that i spend my time pleasing myself instead of God and He's trying to tell me that..

yea, masa itu emas.. God gave us 24 hours a day (alot actually, if you ask me) and how much do we give back to God? bible says give back 1/10 of what God gave you. meaning..2.4 hours a day back to God?

how many times a day do we think of God, of how to glorify Him, of how to bring the lost to Him. how many minutes, how many seconds do we think about God?

everyday i walk past the walkway in school, past teacher's office, past canteen..and God don't run through my mind as often as many other things. sad isn't it? i know i'm not the only one.

humans are too busy with our daily lives to think about God that we forget He's there. and that's the work of the devil. serpent. -.-



yea, just a jumble of thoughts. howdy guys. =)