I'm angry..

i can't believe my friend would cheat during exam. of all people. strong christian?

are you a believer of Christ? if so then why cheat? why lie to yourself, your friends, your family, your school, God? are those few false marks really worth it to sin? you know how much it hurts God? here i am lashing out my anger on my blog, my heart tight as a fist already. what about God? He gave His Son. you? you gave your friends answers?

we are put in this school for a reason. to be the salt and light of the school. to be a christian role model. a christian role model that doesn't cheat during exams. you of all people should know that. i know you said you're not good enough. i'm not too. but there was a reason you were chosen as top. why can't you see that? now everyone looks up to you. and you wanna disappoint them, teacher and God.

you choosed to sit at the back of the class. to cheat. so that teacher won't find out. teacher may be blind. but do you think you can escape from God?

what's the point of cheating during exams? exams exist to build us up in our studies. to test how far we can go. cheating just destroys the whole point of exam. without exam, we wouldn't needa study, cz no one would want to. without studying, school doesn't have a reason to exist. without school, it would be like zaman kegelapan in sejarah. you want that to happen?

and let me remind you that using leaks is already like cheating. right? except that it's more effective. you know what questions are coming out already.

but when spm are you so absolutely sure that the leaks you get will not be a fake?

think about it la. think about your actions that has consequences.

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i view you all as friends. that's why i tell you what's bothering me. what's worrying me. that's why i don't expect you to dig for more info from others and at the same time, spread the rumor around. why do you wanna be such a blabbermouth. to satisfy yourself? what about the opposite receiver? have you ever thought of how they would feel? i know how it feels when you wanna help and just telling one or two person would make you feel better, as if you did help. but think about it. would telling them benefit anyone? apart from the pleasure of gossiping.

i'm really sick of me telling one or two people about my stuff, just to ease my mind a teeny lil bit, only to find that the next day i go to school and get other people confronting me about it. even if i didn't tell you not to tell anyone, it doesn't mean that you can. use your instincts. if you tell me something private, would you want me to tell anyone? i feel hopeless everytime this happens. you guys should already know that i'm a really private person. now i can't trust any of you anymore. thanks.

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i know i'm overoverovereacting. eng2 said to manage anger, one must not think of the cause of our anger. if not, one would be 'fanning the flame'. but i'm not only typing this out just to release my anger. i'm trying to make you all realise. yes you all who are reading this right now. so that next time you'll think properly before doing something. i'm not here to say i'm perfect. that i have no faults. but i'm here to say that we as a believer of Christ should always set an example. press on to what's good and not on what's bad. remember that we are chosen for a reason. that we are different from the world. we are called christians. Christ in us. are we living our lives as christians?

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forgive me if i had offended any of you in this post, or ever before.




God, i'm part of this. and i ask for your forgiveness. ukur baju di badan sendiri.